saviourking: (post | darker days are raining over me)
Dimitri Alexandre Blaiddyd ([personal profile] saviourking) wrote2026-08-25 12:21 pm
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[personal profile] crimsonflower 2020-09-10 02:58 am (UTC)(link)
[Is it terrible of her that she felt more satisfaction from his shock and horror than she does from his acceptance? As if her bitter, scratched glass heart wanted only to say "I told you so".

Yet here he is. All warmth and support. Edelgard is not sure how to handle it. She's never had such kindness before. In fact with no idea how to handle it she almost feels angry. Angry at the world that twisted her in such a way she never learned to accept what is right before her now: admiration and love.

Soft and sweet like a summer breeze; warm like the rays of the sun dappled through a tree canopy.

Her hand balls into a fist, and her confident eyes that burned with defiance now fall away.]


Not as much as I could have been, but if that's just a pity comment I do not wish to have it.
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[personal profile] crimsonflower 2020-09-12 05:06 pm (UTC)(link)
[Why is it that the words she wants to hear make her angry? Or perhaps it is not anger. Is it frustration? Maybe she is frustrated that her anger has no outlet now. No victim for which to burn with her flame. And perhaps a little disappointment, even.

Dimitri said she'd be his choice to bed, and yet she feels no heat or hunger from him? Though Edelgard doesn't seem to consider his admiration and reverence for her might outweigh any baser feelings.

To sum up? She's at a loss. Nowhere to vent frustration or grasp at closure. Unable to accept warmth and praise because even if she wants to she never learned how. Edelgard's hands ball into a fist before she reaches out with open palm turned upward.]


I suppose I should redress.
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[personal profile] crimsonflower 2020-09-14 02:36 am (UTC)(link)
[Despite the careful way he touches her Edelgard still flinches. He asks his question, and when her eyes finally meet his some time has gone by with silence between them.]

I do not know.

[Her voice is soft and belies her apprehension.]

I wished to be honest and clear the air, but I am unsure of where to go from here. And I dislike that uncertainty.

[After all her life has always had an end goal until now. First, to become Emperor, then it was to overthrow the Church, and then to take down Those Who Slither. But where is here life now? Where is the certainty? What end goal is there to this?]
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[personal profile] crimsonflower 2020-09-23 03:06 am (UTC)(link)
Are... are you saying that you loved me, even back then? Even as you cursed my name?

[It shakes her, honestly. To think they both loved each other and were torn apart. To think that they may both feel the same now, but are unable to act because of the years between them.

Or... perhaps she's the only one unable to act. Despite overcoming so much she still feel frozen. Unable to grow beyond her place of righteous fury and rebellion. Or perhaps Edelgard is simply scared that she does not know how to accept even the simplest of affections. Stunted in more than just her height.]
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[personal profile] crimsonflower 2020-09-24 11:08 pm (UTC)(link)
No, [she says softly as she raises their hands. He holds hers, but she cups her free hand over his. Now she holds him in her hands.]

There is no need to apologize. Your breakdown was intentional. It was planned. That's why I did not argue the truth at that time. And I feel as if maybe I know how to better accept your hate than I do your affection. I am not particularly well versed in receiving it. Or even having friends.

I never thought days like these would come again after I did what needed to be done.